Knock on the Door...
Is Jesus knocking on your door? Are you ready to answer?
Today is about opening the door to a new year, 2010. I am sooo... ready to open the door daily and let Jesus into all areas of my life. New inspiration, new beginnings, new opportunities and a New Year of Jesus Christ Blessing my life. A new year of people seeing less of me and more of the holy spirit living in me. The Love of Jesus Christ is new everyday, thanks too the grace he offers all of those who ask. Thanks too the Forgiveness he offered once and for all on the cross at Calvary.
Which bring me to the purpose of this entry. As a humans I do not think I can truly conceive of that kind of forgiveness or grace. A forgiveness which is not earned or worked for, But given through grace and the death of Jesus Christ on the cross. In my experience with forgiveness as a human, my first tendency is to want the one who offend me or who needs my forgiveness to earn it or at the least ask for it. I mean, why should I forgive freely somebody who hurt me deeply and caused so many tears to fall. Shouldn't they have to be worthy of my forgiveness and show me they will not offend me or hurt me that way again? How can I trust somebody who has hurt me, how can I forgive and not want retribution or a sign of remorse. Jesus knew I could not conceive of this kind of forgiveness so he offered to carry my burdens and sins far away. He took all sins to his grave and buried them, then he conquered the grave and death. Up from the grave he rose again in fulfillment of scripture.
Looking back on the many opportunities I have had to forgive others or even myself. I have chosen to forgive, not alone but with the help of Jesus. I have the tendency to say I forgive you and mean it from the bottom of my heart and soul,but then on a bad day I feel like taking it back in some instances. I know it sounds awful, I couldn't agree more. I think to myself wow, here you are saying or doing something I don't like, why was it I forgave you? No matter how hard I try to forgive without expectations, those expectations always rear their ugly heads and remind me that I am unable to forgive unconditional and totally like Jesus Christ did on that cross on Calgary. So I ask for the grace and mercy of Jesus to do what I can not do myself. For I truly believe with all my heart and soul that without a savior I am incapable of true forgiveness.